Oct, 12, 2014 - Back to normal?

As incredibly hard as things have been this past year.  It seems as though things just may have returned back to normal.  There is still an terribly bitter sinking feeling that this whole art dream is a lost cause...  but I wont settle for that.  Need to pick up where I left off and continue my studies 10 fold.  Over the next few days I'll be rewriting those goals down to remind myself why I'm doing all this.  It really sucks from all the lost time, but I cant let that hold me back.

Oct. 4, 2014 - few poses

some of these.

Oct. 3, 2014 - Facial Expressions

Need to quit beating myself up for silly little reasons.  Not being able to do half the stuff I really want to had been getting me down.  Instead of sitting around feeling sorry for myself i need to just return to my studies.  A few things have changed in real life land so for at least this weekend I will have some free time.  After reviewing everything from last month, I cant really say it was a terrible month.  I actually did more than I thought I did.  But I at least want to get this month off right.  I hate to say baby steps again...  but it looks like that's where it's gonna have to be.  Small steps, small studies, small small small.  Anything is better than nothing.  Anything.  Even if it's "not good" which i try to never look at my work as "not good" it's a "work in progress"

About the expressions though, holy crap i really like how they turned out.

Things took a turn... (no art)

Life situation is getting a bit rough with the whole brother and nephew thing.  Things took an interesting turn and I just want it all to get over with.  As much as I wanted October to be a "come back" month, as it stands I'm not sure how active I will be on here.  AT LEAST for the time being.  I'm gonna be away from my computer a bit more than usual so drawing digitally may not be the best option right now.  I do have a few sketch books that I do plan on drawing it, but since I don't have a scanner I wont be able to get them on here.

With all that is going on.  I am still determined to make this a more productive month than last month and to at least get as much drawing in as i can.  I've got to push myself.

With that being said, I still ask for your patience with this blog and it's updates the next few weeks.  I hope that this will be the final stop for all this drama and that things will finally swing my way.

Thanks for understanding.

Sept. 14, 2014 - Gestures and big blog update (Sept. 7 - 14)

Big Blog Update
I hadn't been updating the blog like I am supposed to.  I dont really know why I hadnt.  Just busy in real life i suppose.  But tonight I went through and uploaded the proper drawings with the proper days between Sept 7 to today Sept 14.  So if you read the blog those days are now there with everything.

More gesture

The more I do these the more I feel like I need a refresher with the Vilppu videos with forms.  Through all the stress and such from my last "break thing" from the blog I think I lost some of those details.  While I dont think these are particularly bad, I do think they are missing the form stuff.  I will be reviewing those in the near future.

I did, however have a really good feeling when doing these.  I dont know how much better they ended up, but I did feel good doing them.  I could have continued but I decided to end it there and finally update the blog.

I have also noticed I have been wasting a lot more time doing things I dont really need to be doing...  Playing games, watching youtube etc...  I'm trying to bring back the old schedule I was running on a while back.. buuut with a few modifications.  I'll talk a bit more about that a little later.  This entry is already getting a bit lengthy haha.

MORE TRAINING!!

Sept. 12, 2014 - Gestures and QUICK POSE CERTIFICATE!

Finally got my Quick Pose Certificate!!!
and these were the ones that got me there!

There really isn't anything TOO big with getting the certificate, but it's still a nice feeling.  To know I have put the time in to this thing and really stuck with it.  I think the reward comes more from sitting down and putting in the hours, moreso than the certificate itself.  But still man.  Good feels! <3

This entire blog brings me good feels.  It's filled with things that would have never been had I just given up.  While at the moment am still struggling with focus, time management, and stresses of daily life, it's good to have been able to have been able to return time and time again when I have just felt like giving up all together.  Of-course the giving up feeling never lasts long but...  Sometimes I struggle with constantly feeling like I am "getting back into things" from a few days or a week, or even a month i think at one point from not drawing much...  But at the same time, I think it really says something about a person if even through all the trouble, they are willing to "get back into things" it certainly says something about a person if they keep trying instead of just giving up and deciding its too rough.

Sept. 10, 2014 - Gestures

Another bit of a rough day.
These were a bit longer than the ones i had been doing.

Ehhh but the bottom left and bottom right were't too bad i suppose.  And a few do at least feel like they have some life to them even if they still feel a biiiit stiff.